Reality

If there's one thing I've learned very well in the last two years it's this:  The world doesn't stop turning and life doesn't cease to continue for a broken heart.

That's right, friends.  I said two years - two years of depression - two years of misery - two years of disbelief, unrest and lack of understanding. Most of you never even knew that I was going through anything at all because more often than not, "The one with the biggest smile, is hiding the biggest tears."

I always thought from events of my very distant past that life could turn on a dime but what I thought I knew was miniscule to what I learned.  It all started in 2009 when Miss Ma'am was in second grade.  Events that shook the very foundation of my entire life and that, in turn, affected everyone here on the homefront. 

Satan reared his ugly head and I suffered great trials of faith, not just a battle - a WAR!  I suffered a massive depression that I'm sure the wonderful man in my life thought would never end.

I'll  not go into detail with the who, where and why of it all.  I've said it before and I stand by it now - there are just some things that don't need to be aired to the general populous.  Those who need to know - KNOW. 

There came a point during all this time that I began to feel better and attempted to start blogging again, when all of a sudden ... BAM!  I was hit from my blindside with yet another devistating traumatic event, and I fell yet again. I'm here to tell y'all now that depression is a very serious business and not ever to be taken lightly.  I won't lie to you and say that I'm 100% healed because the truth is I may not ever be, but I AM better.

During these trials, I found out who most of my real friends are and I've discovered others whom I'm slowly eliminating from my life.  I'll update again (very soon) regarding friendship in general, but for now I want to pull out of the list the greatest friend through it all ...

He wasn't just the wind beneath my wings, y'all.  For many days, weeks, even months; HE WAS MY WINGS and I could never even begin to express with words or even actions or emotions how very much I sincerely love, and appreciate my incredible husband.  I can only hope and pray (I do that a lot lately) that somehow - He Knows.

I love you so much, Mr. Man. 

I really DO mean it.  Love, Me.

 

This is USS Retired signing off ...